LIFE IN MORROWIND - DAY 11

Yesterday, as I barely escaped from the Shulk egg mine with my life, I was sure I would not be going back there. I would just return to Eydis and excuse myself from this task - and from the Fighters Guild in general. It did not make sense for me to join them in the first place. Me, a fighter? Not even funny.

As I woke in the morning today, I felt differently. Admitting defeat is never pleasant, of course, but this was something else. Not even a hurt sense of pride, no. I am struggling to understand this new personality that I am apparently developing on the alien soil of Vvardenfel. In this case, as I questioned myself on my motives, I realised that deep inside me I had an irrational sense of confidence: I knew I could do it, I could handle those egg poachers, and I could handle Fighters Guild. Maybe not right now, not without preparation and learning, but I felt that I could handle anything.

This time I arrived to the mine knowing what to expect and where to go. I did not spend time and energy roaming the underground labirinth and casting invisibility spells to avoid its hostile kwama denizens. I ran directly to that part of the cave where I had seen the bandits earlier (wondering if I would still find them in there or if they had moved their lair, alerted by my brief appearance). I ignored the kwama foragers, who were chasing me - they were not fast enough to catch up, and I knew I would soon be putting a door between me and my pursuers. These kwama creatures may be smart as far as insects go, but they have not learnt to open doors yet.

As I passed through the door to the cave that had witnessed my yesterday's failure I knew immediately that the rouge miners were still there, as I was greeted by their enraged shouts: apparently, they were on high alert now and noticed me immediately. But I was well prepared and did not panic this time around. First - summon a clannfear - a new and powerful spell I had learned this morning in the Mages Guild. A ghastly green lizard appeared, as tall as a man, with vicious claws and a razor sharp beak. Second - cast invisiblity. Both spells worked flawlessly this time as I was concentrated and determined. Now I just watched my daedric summon easily dispatch my enemies. In half a minute, it was all over. One more spell - Almsvi intervention - and a few minutes later I was reporting to Eydis the succesful completion of her task. 

It was a great start of the day, a much better one than I had expected on the previous night. But I did not stop there. It's almost like there's some sort fire burning inside me, giving me energy and drive that I had never known before. Every day I take mortal risks, I vitness and do things I had thought impossible. And yet I do not feel overwhelmed or lost - on the contrary, my determination and sense of purpose is incresing with each passing hour in this world.

In my pursuit of better understanding this land and its society, I wanted to get a taste of all major factions and influetial groups. I was already part of the two main guilds, a local Great House and Tribunal Temple. There was another important and prominent power in these parts - the Empire. Of course, I was also technically a members of the imperial secret service, the Blades, but that meant nothing for me at the moment. 

I asked around and found out that I could, potentially, join the Imperial Legion itself as a new recruit, or serve their religious order, the Imperial Cult. Even now I could not imagine myself in any kind of military force, so that only left the Cult.

With that decision, I arrived to Ebonheart, the seat of imperial power in the province of Morrowind. 

I was welcomed to the Cult, and when I asked how I could serve them, I got handed out a number of menial jobs, which mostly involved travelling and talking to people. I've completed a few of them today and have more on my list for tomorrow. I even got promoted to the rank of Initiate. I got to sleep in the chambers of the Imperial Castle in Ebonheart, another exciting day behind me and even more exciting days waiting ahead. After just ten days here, I can already say that I'm loving my new life here in Morrowind.